Tuesday, June 14, 2011


A lady that born every child
A housewife that take care the house
A lady that mumble to you everyday
A lady that loves you more than your girlfriend does


playing League of Legion
receive a call from a patient
Must answer even is playing

Hello. What are you doing?
Erm. Playing game now lorh. Why?
Can you on skype? I wanna try how to cam.
Ma can wait for a while? almost done. Why don't try to call gor. I'll call you later ok?

Continue playing.

Video call
 Chit chat for a while
Look closely to your mom ah. See anything change or not.
Huh?? Nothing change ah.. cut hair jor lorh.. have short hair now. But still looks nice.
Look closely ah. Sooner you won't see me in this look already. Wednesday going to undergo Chemo injection la. After that hair fall de larh. Your mom will be botak de larh.

Can't take it so I cry out.
Mom laugh at me and say just joking.
Then she cry out also.
I actually cry in front of my mom
I drag her to the field of sadness along.

A picture of my mum

Ma. No matter how you look like, as long you are healthy as always, I'll be happy. I don't want anything happen to you. Sorry that didn't treat you good enough before.
After I leave my house to study at KL, I realize home the the place I need. I treat my mum better since I left.
but now...

My friends telling me to be strong.
Everything will be fine.
Technologies nowadays is good enough
They'll pray. I'll pray too.
Thanks guys who support and help me.
But I can't stop worrying now.

Chemo injection at KK
Math Final assessment at Taylor's

can't stop crying when writting this.

Sunday, June 12, 2011


Everyone cried crying or will cry
No matter how old are you

Tear can be Tear of Sadness
Tear can be Tear of Joy
but not tear of godness in LoL

Yesterday afternoon
When I was playing Plant vs Zombie

I receive a message from my sister through Facebook.
Report is out 
Mum is sick

I quickly call my mum ask about it.
She was crying and she say everything is ok.
She hide from me because she don't want us to worry.

I didn't cry
It's not because I'm not sad.
I didn't cry
Because I don't know what should I do

At night
I call dad to ask again.
Dad say brother know about it already
Dad say mum is watching tv
Dad say wait Monday do surgery
I always believe cancer can be avoid if you realize it during 1st stage

I hope everything will be fine.
Mom. I love you.

To all my friends.
Don't hesitate to do medical check up
Anything will happen

One have to stop crying in order to proceed and get stronger
But at the same time, one need to have the strength to cry.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Things that happen

Few months ago

You and I
Having chat almost everyday
We talk about our daily life
We share everything
Love story Sad story

Few months later

You stop contacting me
with a simple reason
you are busy
you don't know what to say

Few days ago

I post a Facebook status

This status is for you
You come to my life
and you leave me alone


are a pillow for me
without you
I can't sleep


am a nail clipper for you
You will come and look for me
only when you need help

Even you need help
you can simply get one nail clipper
not necessary is me

I did not expect anything from you
But at the same time
I can't forget about you

What should I do?